The only reason why I didn’t go to sajc was because my sister told me not to. She was from there. I didn’t think I’ll listen to her advice but I did. Everyday I am constantly thinking whether I made the correct decision not to enter sajc and it’s killing me. I hope her advice will pay off two years later because I have never ever heed on my sister’s advice. The fact that out from NOWHERE i decided to heed my sister’s advice this time on study issues puzzles me to an immense amount.
I know it’s like super lame I’m still fretting over this but I cannot get over the fact because I frigging HATE regrets. Remember there are two pains in the world? Pain of discipline and pain of regret, and how pain of regret is the worst because it haunts you in the long run whereas the pain of discipline only happens over a certain period of time. It KILLS me literally knowing that I (might have) regretted my decision. IT’S LIKE EATING ME ALIVE. I don’t wanna spend 2 years in a school just to regret, just to suffer, thinking I could have gone to a better school where I would eventually enjoyed myself. It kills me knowing I have to LIVE with the regret.
